Thursday, September 29, 2016

Another fail. Another heartbreak.

When the time is right, I, the Lord will make it happen. Isa 60:22

Well, another failed IUI but we are not losing hope! We will meet with our doctor soon but are hoping they allow us to continue on with another IUI this cycle while we wait (takes forever to get in to see her!). Pray that all works out, calling today to speak with a nurse.

This was a doozy of a cycle. We felt very hopeful and then I had a late period which of course got our hopes/hearts up even though tests were negative. I think it was probably the extra Clomid that made it so long.

Thank you for your texts, calls, prayers, and love. It means so much that you care. I'm sorry if I'm distant at times. Sometimes it's easier to be alone and not have to talk about any of it. . .and I cry quite frequently. Unless you've walked this journey of infertility, it's impossible to explain the never ending emotional roller coaster this is....with every.single.cycle.

Saturday, September 10, 2016

IUI #3

Just wanted to update and let ppl know we've done the IUI and are in the waiting phase now. With having to get three ultrasounds, it's been a bit of a stressful cycle so far. I'm going to focus on relaxing and trying to have a stress-free waiting period.

Will probably lay low for a while now but wanted to share a post from a man who wrote about his and his wife's infertility journey. Here's the link if you would like to read it. . .he does a good job of explaining the emotional journey, even though their story is different than ours. It's a good read!

Thank you all for your love and prayers.

Monday, September 5, 2016

More Waiting...

Well my ultrasound didn't show much of a change since Friday. For some reason my follicles (eggs) didn't respond like they have been to the Clomid. Only two grew 1mm since Friday (typically they are supposed to grow 1-2mm a day). They are putting me on three more days of 100mg of Clomid (a higher dose than what I normally take) and want me to come in for a third ultrasound on Friday. They said my ovaries are responding because I do have several follicles, they just aren't being as responsive this cycle for some reason. So more money and more waiting. 😩 Hopefully they will respond well by Friday and I'll be able to do the trigger shot and do the IUI Saturday.
They did say my lining has gone from 4.something on Friday to 6.9 today (so the red raspberry leaf tea and Pom juice I'm drinking everyday are working!).

Please be praying this extra dose of meds works and that we can move forward with things. And of course be praying for a successful IUI this cycle and healthy pregnancy ahead!

Saturday, September 3, 2016


It has amazed and humbled me how in this hard, hard, journey family and friends have come along side us in the most beautiful ways. How so many are being tangled into this story of ours. The prayers. The financial gifts (we received more this past week and it came right on time). The calls. The messages. The texts. In the past I've been afraid to share because I don't want others to know our pain but y'all, God is showing me that in the pain there is beauty when you let people in to hold you up. To fill the gaps, not just of finances, but of faith and hope that there is good coming in our story. Thank you for loving us so well. For being in our corner. For being a part of our story.

Update: I will have a second ultrasound this Monday to know when to do the trigger shot and when the IUI will be. We had an ultrasound on Friday but it was too early to tell anything (we needed to have it so we would know how to move forward with it being a holiday weekend but they're expensive!).