Feeling Hopeless

Me, always on the right. If a picture could describe this journey perfectly, it'd be this one.

IUI #4 didn't work either and I am so worn out from this. I feel so empty and broken and like this will never work. So often I just think maybe we aren't meant to have kids (please don't tell me we are, you don't know that). In the deepest areas of my heart there is still a pull to keep going, try again, keep trusting that God will fill the desires of my heart. . .but it's not always easy to believe it.

We meet with our doctor tomorrow. I don't know that she'll have any new ideas but hopefully so.

Number 4 in the Books

Did IUI #4 last week. Thank you for your prayers. Pray my emotions get a little more under control...I feel horrible. So blah and out of control of my emotions. I think it's both the meds and just the hard journey this is.

This is me exactly:

Round 4

Let round 4 begin. Starting my higher dose of clomid today. Will have my follicular ultrasound next week. Pray we only need one this time around. And of course that it works.

Thankfully our doctor is letting us continue with another IUI while we wait for our consult with her at the end of the month. If it doesn't work, I guess we will discuss other meds or things to try. If it does, she'll lay out our plan for the weeks while I'm in their care before I transfer out. Praying it will be a pregnancy consult!

Y'all the Clomid is giving me more and more side-effects the more cycles I take it. My poor, poor, husband. My emotions are out of control and my ovaries feel like they are going to pop out of my body. It's cray. . .I'm cray.